If my computer is ever confiscated by the FBI, they’re gonna know the truth: that I am one filthy little bitch! The number one piece of evidence is all the gangbang porn I watch!
It’s true for not only me but probably most of us, that one of our biggest fears is that we die or go missing and our friends or family members need to scour our internet browsing history for clues of what happened. Oh, that’s just me? Well, maybe that’s because leafing through my browser history will only send people running to the nearest glory hole or bukkake party, and I don’t want to do that to the people I love!
No matter the attention we pay to use private browsing for our most deviant of searches, Google tracks every move we make both online and in real life. Do you own a smartphone of any kind? Unless you’re exceptionally computer literate and have turned off the google tracking that you’ve never even activated, I PROMISE YOU, your physical and digital footprints are being stored. Investigators use these footprints to solve crimes and locate missing persons, but holy fuck, let us hope that the people closest to us don’t figure out how to access this data before we do, because, NO ONE in my everyday world needs to discover just how much of a nasty little nympho I am.
Since this is my somewhat-private corner of the internet, I can share this confession with you all: I’m obsessed with gangbang porn.
My Love for Gangbangs: An Origin Story
Once upon a time, when innocent little RyderDoll discovered her first porn, she certainly wasn’t diving into videos of bored girl-next-door types covered in massive loads of cum or 20 guys in a line running a train on some slut. My initial venture into porn was one-on-one, male-female with dirty talk, but nothing too extreme or taboo. I’ve always preferred something a dirtier to other “wholesome” porn options like some of my girlfriends claim they choose. I don’t want to see silky white sheets and hair blowing in the breeze as some chiseled average-boy Chad approaches the woman donned in a white negligee, ready to make sweet love to her. UGH. I’d rather die than be fucked like that, let alone spend my fantasy hours watching that drivel. I want realistic, seemingly amateur fucking, and I want it raw and dirty and extreme.
Over the last few years, probably thanks to all the pervs I talk to on NiteFlirt, or just through my maturation of exploring my kinks, I’ve ventured away from one-on-one porn, and have welcomed the idea that more is most definitely merrier.
When it comes to gangbangs, for me, brutal is better. If a video doesn’t include degradation, slapping, spitting, choking, and at minimum 3 cocks, I’ll find one that does to rub my sweet little pussy to instead. Sometimes I read the comments on porn videos and see men who post things like “I should hate myself for cumming to this,” and it makes me laugh. Maybe it’s admirable to feel remorse for getting pleasure from someone else’s pain. However, I believe that when it comes to fetish and kinkiness, there shouldn’t be any shame in what your mind and body respond to as a turn-on (>insert obligatory comment about that being within legal limits<). I recently read that women are 80% more likely than men to search for, watch, and masturbate to gangbang porn. If us ladies are into it, you men should feel perfectly comfortable jerking your dicks off to it, too.
Kink shaming is bad, but kink-shaming yourself is the worst thing you can do for your sexual wellbeing.
My Gangbang Kink Does Not Define Me
I know that my friends who know what kind of porn I’m into don’t necessarily “get it.” I also know that some of my clients, particularly the ones for whom I am dominant, would be shocked to know that what makes me wet is a woman being manhandled by a group of men and used as a piece of meat. Bonus points if the woman is reminded that her only worth is for her holes to be filled up. Well, those particular guys SHOULD be shocked, because they would never be the type of man I’d fantasize about or think of sexually. Those guys are beta losers and financial pay pigs who serve an entirely different purpose to me than sexual pleasure. Then there are my girlfriend experience clients who look at me as the sweet doll that I can often be. Well, to them I say, welcome to reality! Get over your Madonna-whore complex and recognize that modern women can unabashedly be all of the above.
I’m a bad, dominant little bitch in my everyday life. However, sexually, I only fuck dominant men who know how to put me in my place. It makes sense that I get off from the idea of a group of them tearing me apart from pretty little hole to pretty little hole. Our sexual desires and porn views are often the antitheses of who we are in everyday life. They tend to play out fantasies we haven’t yet lived out in real time for one reason or another, as sexual pleasure has so many deep, psychological roots of exposing us at our most vulnerable.
What’s Your Shame?
What are your top porn searches? Which kink would you be most ashamed for your friends or family to discover in your browsing history? Have any super fucking hot gangbang links to share with me? Have any of your kinks changed or developed over time? Let me know in the comments or through some calls or chats over at NiteFlirt!
I can’t wait to turn your fetish shame into my financial gain!
